"Nevermore."
1.28.2011
1.27.2011
Miles and Miles...
1741.33 miles
That's how far I am from what I used to call home.
Which in this situation is a word used to describe the location of everything that came before where I currently am. It's a two story beige house in the country. It's four Rhodesian Ridge-backs and a one very tiny cracked out Dachshund. It's a four-wheel drive Toyota and 20 acres of land. It's my high school and my teachers. And it's more than all of that. It's generations of my family. It's my parents, grandparents, uncles, aunts, cousins, and nephews. It's my education. It's my ethics. It's my morals. It's my background. It's my DNA. It's security. It's known.
22.96 square miles.
That's how far I am from what I used to call home.
Which in this situation is a word used to describe the location of everything that came before where I currently am. It's a two story beige house in the country. It's four Rhodesian Ridge-backs and a one very tiny cracked out Dachshund. It's a four-wheel drive Toyota and 20 acres of land. It's my high school and my teachers. And it's more than all of that. It's generations of my family. It's my parents, grandparents, uncles, aunts, cousins, and nephews. It's my education. It's my ethics. It's my morals. It's my background. It's my DNA. It's security. It's known.
22.96 square miles.
| That's the size of the island I now call home. | |||||||
| Which in this situation is a word used to describe the location of where I currently inhale and exhale. It's Manhattan. It's the School of Visual Arts. It's a small six person apartment on the 16th floor. It's a bed and a desk. It's a roommate. But it's more than all that. It's all the opportunities. It's readjusting. It's new relationships. It's learning to cope. It's growing up, even more. It's the promise of what I am becoming. It's a risk. It's unknown. | |||||||
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Late is Better Than Never
Again, I'm late with the whole, blog-a-week thing. Oh well. I do my best.
For those of you who don't live in New York City, it's a freakin' ice box here right now. I thought I was accidentally eating ice cream for breakfast, but it was just my cereal. Everyone here keeps telling me to just get used to it, but I don't think they quite realize that to a Texan, snow is a mythical beast closely related to the unicorn. So to go from blurry sightings, to weeks on end of it...it's a bit hard to just get used to. Also, my roommate seems to run about 10 degrees warmer than I do. Or I run 10 degrees colder...maybe I AM a vampire. Anyways, it ends up that I can't turn the heat on without bothering her, and I can only wear so many layers of socks...
Yesterday I spent the entire day organizing my drawers, cleaning off my desk, finishing laundry, and I even cleaned the bathroom. As messy as my mind is, cleaning and organizing is like some strange, ocd ritual for me. I get obsessive until everything is just perfect, and then I'm done for the day. If I'm going to spend time cleaning, that's my only purpose that day. When I'm done, I can die. And by die, I mean watch a few episodes of Dexter before falling into a caffeine coma from all the tea I've been drinking. More like just a coma, because I've been making a point to buy decaffeinated tea only. Speaking of tea, I'm going to go make some.
Alright, where was I? Oh yeah. Tea. After I cleaned, I went and bought groceries. Lactaid, cereal, frozen waffles, and two new tea flavors. Spicy Apple Chai and Vanilla Nut Creme. They both sound delicious huh? Lies. They were both gross. I'm sticking to my Sleepy Time and Tension Tamer from now on. Before groceries, I was at the library picking up some Audrey Hepburn's. Charade and Funny Face. The latter is what I plan to fall asleep to tonight.
This morning, I woke up for my 9 am and looked out the window to see...gray. Lots of gray.
Without contacts or glasses in, I'm blinder than a bat, so I asked my roommate, "Is that rain or snow?" She replied, "I think its both." Great. More gray mythical creatures falling all over my face and melting on my neck and sliding icy water down my spine when I'm walking to class. Exactly what I wanted.
For those of you who don't live in New York City, it's a freakin' ice box here right now. I thought I was accidentally eating ice cream for breakfast, but it was just my cereal. Everyone here keeps telling me to just get used to it, but I don't think they quite realize that to a Texan, snow is a mythical beast closely related to the unicorn. So to go from blurry sightings, to weeks on end of it...it's a bit hard to just get used to. Also, my roommate seems to run about 10 degrees warmer than I do. Or I run 10 degrees colder...maybe I AM a vampire. Anyways, it ends up that I can't turn the heat on without bothering her, and I can only wear so many layers of socks...
Yesterday I spent the entire day organizing my drawers, cleaning off my desk, finishing laundry, and I even cleaned the bathroom. As messy as my mind is, cleaning and organizing is like some strange, ocd ritual for me. I get obsessive until everything is just perfect, and then I'm done for the day. If I'm going to spend time cleaning, that's my only purpose that day. When I'm done, I can die. And by die, I mean watch a few episodes of Dexter before falling into a caffeine coma from all the tea I've been drinking. More like just a coma, because I've been making a point to buy decaffeinated tea only. Speaking of tea, I'm going to go make some.
Alright, where was I? Oh yeah. Tea. After I cleaned, I went and bought groceries. Lactaid, cereal, frozen waffles, and two new tea flavors. Spicy Apple Chai and Vanilla Nut Creme. They both sound delicious huh? Lies. They were both gross. I'm sticking to my Sleepy Time and Tension Tamer from now on. Before groceries, I was at the library picking up some Audrey Hepburn's. Charade and Funny Face. The latter is what I plan to fall asleep to tonight.
This morning, I woke up for my 9 am and looked out the window to see...gray. Lots of gray.
Without contacts or glasses in, I'm blinder than a bat, so I asked my roommate, "Is that rain or snow?" She replied, "I think its both." Great. More gray mythical creatures falling all over my face and melting on my neck and sliding icy water down my spine when I'm walking to class. Exactly what I wanted.
1.17.2011
So I would love to tell you that my resolutions are all still in full effect, and I've been drinking water everyday and my eyes are bleeding from seeing so much and there are babies everywhere smiling in response to my overflowing niceties. But that is not the case.
Granted, I haven't had any soda yet. I've been going through almost two boxes of tea a week though, and I don't know if that is much healthier in the long term than an occasional soda. As far as learning new things go, I've learned two chords on the mandolin.
And that's about it.
I worked over forty hours at Lomography since I got back on the 5th. I don't think I've ever written about my job before. Maybe because I know that anyone could read it. I really enjoy my job though, so I guess I shouldn't be worried about the things I will potentially write about it. Lomo is really great. I mean, I get to stand around and talk about cameras and film and geek out all day. The only negative is that every minute I'm here is a minute I'm not working on homework or my own art. C'est la vie!
Granted, I haven't had any soda yet. I've been going through almost two boxes of tea a week though, and I don't know if that is much healthier in the long term than an occasional soda. As far as learning new things go, I've learned two chords on the mandolin.
And that's about it.
I worked over forty hours at Lomography since I got back on the 5th. I don't think I've ever written about my job before. Maybe because I know that anyone could read it. I really enjoy my job though, so I guess I shouldn't be worried about the things I will potentially write about it. Lomo is really great. I mean, I get to stand around and talk about cameras and film and geek out all day. The only negative is that every minute I'm here is a minute I'm not working on homework or my own art. C'est la vie!
1.08.2011
New Years Resolutions...wait, what?
1. NO SODA.
This isn't a huge thing. I just want to see how long I can go without Dr. Pepper. It's usually my heroin of choice to shoot up late at night when I forget to do my homework, or my breakfast of champions when I'm running out the door to class. Which is great and all, but not the healthiest of habits. I have free and clean water, and a pretty decent assortment of teas, so I plan on making full use of them this year. I'm currently enjoying a nice cup of Mandarin Spice out of a genuine 1990's Capra family reunion mug, go me.
2. BLOG A WEEK.
I started this blog awhile ago with the most glorious of selfish intentions...writing about my life, more often. But I really didn't do a great job of that, and for that I will make amends. I am going to hold myself to at least one blog a week, even if its just a break down of what went on in painful, dull detail. On a good day, I might even write a tutorial for Photoshop or costume makeup techniques, as I have received several requests for that. I mean, I can't promise that they will be any good, but I will try! &That's what counts, riiight?
3. LEARN NEW THINGS//ENJOY THE LITTLE THINGS.
I'm not going to lie, I'm pretty lazy. When it comes to the things I know, photography and such, I can get things done. But when it comes to actually living a full, active life...I'm pretty much a failure. I've never learned a musical instrument, I haven't been to a ballet class in over five months, and my yoga mat sits under my bed. Not to mention, most all my meals last semester came out of a microwave or were prepared by stranger's hands. This isn't really a resolution, more of a lifestyle ideology that I want to live out, just by living life more fully. I'm incredibly blessed to be living in more of the most artistic and eccentric cities in all of North America. I should be taking full advantage of that.
4. BE KIND.
I cannot even begin to explain how hard it is for me to publicly smile or compliment a backbiting foe or 'friend' that I have to interact with. I tend to recoil from social situations in general that demand an overall politeness to people of little or no importance to my life. Rarely will I go out of my way to talk to someone I don't like in an attempt to alleviate the negative feelings and move past them. But I'm going to start working on that, because it's what a real human being would do. "Be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle." Thanks Plato. Idiot.
Alright, so I've made my intentions public in a scary attempt to have some sort of accountability! I'll let you know how things progress as the year continues. Now I want to know, what are you making an effort to do (or not do) in 2011?
This isn't a huge thing. I just want to see how long I can go without Dr. Pepper. It's usually my heroin of choice to shoot up late at night when I forget to do my homework, or my breakfast of champions when I'm running out the door to class. Which is great and all, but not the healthiest of habits. I have free and clean water, and a pretty decent assortment of teas, so I plan on making full use of them this year. I'm currently enjoying a nice cup of Mandarin Spice out of a genuine 1990's Capra family reunion mug, go me.
2. BLOG A WEEK.
I started this blog awhile ago with the most glorious of selfish intentions...writing about my life, more often. But I really didn't do a great job of that, and for that I will make amends. I am going to hold myself to at least one blog a week, even if its just a break down of what went on in painful, dull detail. On a good day, I might even write a tutorial for Photoshop or costume makeup techniques, as I have received several requests for that. I mean, I can't promise that they will be any good, but I will try! &That's what counts, riiight?
3. LEARN NEW THINGS//ENJOY THE LITTLE THINGS.
I'm not going to lie, I'm pretty lazy. When it comes to the things I know, photography and such, I can get things done. But when it comes to actually living a full, active life...I'm pretty much a failure. I've never learned a musical instrument, I haven't been to a ballet class in over five months, and my yoga mat sits under my bed. Not to mention, most all my meals last semester came out of a microwave or were prepared by stranger's hands. This isn't really a resolution, more of a lifestyle ideology that I want to live out, just by living life more fully. I'm incredibly blessed to be living in more of the most artistic and eccentric cities in all of North America. I should be taking full advantage of that.
I cannot even begin to explain how hard it is for me to publicly smile or compliment a backbiting foe or 'friend' that I have to interact with. I tend to recoil from social situations in general that demand an overall politeness to people of little or no importance to my life. Rarely will I go out of my way to talk to someone I don't like in an attempt to alleviate the negative feelings and move past them. But I'm going to start working on that, because it's what a real human being would do. "Be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle." Thanks Plato. Idiot.
Alright, so I've made my intentions public in a scary attempt to have some sort of accountability! I'll let you know how things progress as the year continues. Now I want to know, what are you making an effort to do (or not do) in 2011?
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